lives as a girl 24 hours a day. He may even be ev- vious, but after all he is 6'3" tall and built like a bricklayer. He somehow can't associate himself with

this individual

He continues reading and learns of another TV who wears feminine apparel under his ordinary street clothes and shudders since he has a great fear of re- vealing himself, or he may feel that one either dres- ses all the way either as a man or woman and outward- ly at least should be either a man or a woman. he finds it difficult to identify with this person.

Again

He then reads of another of the sorority who has gone shopping in the "outer world" in feminine garb and makes the intelligent observation that he cannot do this for reasons of fear and knowledge that he could not for many reasons be successful in such a sortie.

He continues to read and finds that in TV # is having electrolysis to remove the hai.rs, hormones too change to a more feminine appearance, plucked eyebrows, growing long hair, piercing ears, and com- pletely shaved legs etc., and withdraws from these since he knows he must make a living, may have a family that does not understand or know of his TVism, and because his activities are in a masculine sphere would not dare alter his appearance to this exteme -even though he might wish to do so. He also does not want to reveal himself to others and these actions would do so.

He reads further and learns that there are meet- ings of TVs at which non- TV's may be present, and he does not wish to reveal himself in this type of situa- tion. He reads of others who sleep in nighties, use perfume, practice walking and talking and says this is not for me.

And when he evaluates them all he may come to the conclusion that these people are not like himself, and he plans to withdraw to his solitary TV confine- ment.

These at least were some of the thoughts that oc-

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